Yup, it’s happened.  Jan Bloom is now a grandmother, after being a grandfather three times.  Our first granddaugther, Victoria Bloom Harris, was born this morning at 9 AM.  She weighed 9# 2 oz and I forgot to ask her length – but it is LONG!  Jenni loves producing large, healthy babies; Mikey (age 4 1/2) was 12 #, Charlie (age 2 1/2) over 10 # and now Tori, who seems positively delicate after her brothers!

Jan's first granddaughter, Tori

Jan's first granddaughter, Tori

Tori was born in a hospital, due to the fact that her mommy is very tired and thought the idea of being taken care of was lovely!

The boys think their sister is beautiful and are especially glad mommy has  a lap again for snuggling.

Jason was a great labor coach and obedient father-to-be; he jumped when Jenni said JUMP and he got out of the pool when Jenni ordered him OUT.  Jenni is a textbook transition lady who threatens, cajoles, yells, and makes her mind up.  It’s quite opposite to her normal sweet self!

The Harris Family and Granny Janny

The Harris Family and Granny Janny

Here’s Tori by herself:

Victoria Bloom Harris- 4 hours old

Victoria Bloom Harris- 4 hours old

For those of you wondering how Charlie is handling his new rold as elder brother, here is a photo of the two of them:

Charlie and Tori on Tori's birthday

Charlie and Tori on Tori's birthday

Charlie was a stitch at the hospital.  Whenever he encountered a uniformed caregiver he stopped, pulled up his shirt and proudly pointed to his port and then pointed to his head and said “owweee.”  When Jenni’s dinner came he pulled his chair up to the side of the bed and began looking in all the containers.  He loves that hospital food!  His hair is growing back a little bit but it may take a while -the radiation actually burned the skin and the new hair has to poke itself through in new places.  He’s bright-eyed and bushy tailed and almost always cheerful though we did see some jealousy today when Tori began nursing.  WHAT is she doing???!!!!

I’m in MN for the month of August to help Jenni and pack up our belongings.  We are still waiting for our house to sell.  Anyone interested in a LOVELY garage with a pretty great house?  You can google our house: 380 2nd St SE, Cokato, MN and see it for yourself.  I haven’t been in it yet – I’ve been busy with Jenni and the boys.

Gary is in Houston this weekend at the Woodlands Conference with My Father’s World.  I am jealous!  I miss our times with our vendor friends and conference attendees.  But I’m glad I can be here with Jenni and her family.

We attended “Experience Night” at our church here in Rolla the other night.  Experience nights are rather new and novel for these Minnesotan evangelicals, but we came away from “Experiencing God’s Voice” back in March bemused and intrigued by the reality of God, and decided to attend “Experiencing Forgiveness”  this month since we were actually here to attend.

Okay, Lord, what do You want to teach me?

(And now, Lord, after 2 hours of writing and rewriting my few simple thoughts on forgiveness, grant clarity and cohesiveness to the words I’ve labored so hard to fit together!)

I’ve never had a clear picture of forgiveness.   I’ve struggled with lack of forgiveness, not really understanding WHAT it was I was battling.  I’ve learned much and have experienced healing in this area in the past few years, but I was eager to hear new insights.

As Matt described it, when we are wronged, something is stolen from us -our innocence, our possessions, a relationship, our time, our sensibilities, our pride,  the list goes on and on… and we are left feeling violated and angry.  (So THAT’S why it’s so hurtful!) We want those who wronged us to pay back what was taken.  (You bet I do!)  Revenge is the feeling we have when we want to “get even” – that is, we want THEM to suffer the way we have suffered.  (And this is WRONG??!)

Matt quoted a writer who stated, “Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.”  Unforgiveness can become our security, our identity, and, sometimes, our prison.  (Been there, done that.)

Forgiveness is NOT just pretending the wrong never happened, nor is it making light of any damage that was done.  “Forgive and forget” is NOT the eleventh commandment!

Matt’s definition that spoke so powerfully to me is this:  Forgiveness is saying to God, “I release this person who has wronged me from paying back the debt they owe me, and I trust YOU will make it right.

Sometimes God makes it right quickly by reminding us that we were not totally innocent ourselves, and we bow in humility and acknowledgement.  God also knows that as we mature we understand that our perceptions can be skewed or our memories faulty (this is why we MUST not carry grudges from our childhoods!) or our understanding incomplete.  Sometimes we just need a gentle embrace until we can stand on our own two feet and accept both our own inadequacies as well as the failings of others.

When we are truly wounded, whether it is physically, emotionally, or spiritually, we truly suffer.  Wounds that are not taken care of properly may develop an infection, which can create all kinds of additional problems.  Wounds that don’t heal can be life-threatening.  Forgiveness is intentional.  We acknowledge that we are letting go of a specific something – whether it is a grudge, a resentment, a feeling of being betrayed, or the great emptiness that may accompany the loss of life.  Forgiveness means we look to the LORD to cleanse the wound so the healing can begin.  And He will do it!

Even wounds that heal oftentimes leave a scar.  A song by RIVER that I love has the line in it: “The only scars in heaven are the scars on Jesus’ hands.”  My scars will disappear in heaven, but until then, scars are real.  Scars CAN be reminders of God’s faithfulness and grace.  After all, we are living and can tell the story of how we got the scar and how we learned more of God’s love and faithfulness through the experience.

God IS sovereign.  He DOES know how I’ve been hurt.  He FEELS my pain, for He was misunderstood, betrayed and wounded by others.  Yet He never sinned – that is, He never said to His Heavenly Father: “YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING!!! Your promise to give me all I needed is NOT TRUE and I am going to go get what I need NOW instead of waiting for YOU.  I CANNOT and I WILL NOT trust You.”

Jesus NEVER called God a liar, which is what WE do when we refuse to forgive.  He said, as His life was ending, “Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing.”  How many times do we not know what we’re doing when we offend someone?  And is it possible that one who offends us doesn’t know what he is doing?  Even if someone hurts us intentionally, we are not God, and we do not have the authority to call down judgment on that person.

God is the only righteous judge.  He is the ONLY one who knows all the facts and can clearly see.  When I refuse to forgive, I set myself up not only as judge  but jury and executioner too.  Unforgiveness is sin because we will NEVER know all the facts and background nor will we ever be able to judge fairly just because we bring our own preconceptions, biases, and prejudices to every situation.  To say nothing of our affronted pride when we don’t get our own way!

Jesus was VERY specific: if we do NOT forgive our brothers or sisters who have wronged us, God CANNOT forgive us.  What is this all about?  Can’t God do ANYTHING?  Why can’t He forgive?  Is His action TRULY dependent on MY actions?

Language tells us so much.  When I first wrote this next sentence, I was struck by the word picture it brought up: “It’s not that God WILL not forgive us when we harbor grudges and unforgiveness”..WAIT!  Harbor…ships…What happens when the harbor is full of ships – rotting, broken down vessels that are pulled up to slips, taking up all the room?  The big, new ships cannot land and disgorge their cargo or their crew.

The other strong word picture is that of NURSING a grudge.  What does a good nurse do?  She (I’m from the era of Cherry Ames!) keeps the patient comfortable and, as much as it is in her power, alive.  Do we WANT our grudges to be nicely taken care of so they will thrive?

Whew!  Uncomfortable thoughts!

Another picture that came to my mind was that of a petrie dish and its culture medium for growing bacteria.  When we forgive others; when we let God be God in all aspects of our lives, THEN we are able to confess OUR sins and then WE are forgiven and cleansed.  (I John 1:7)  The culture medium of unforgiveness is washed away, our petrie dish is sterilized by the awesome holiness of God, and that nasty bacteria (unforgiveness, bitterness, etc.) can no longer grow!

Do I hear a YEE HAW! about right now?!

When I was young we used to sing, ” TRUST and OBEY for there’s no other way to be happy in Jesus.”  Granting forgiveness is TRUSTING that our obedience to God’s command to forgive is MORE important than the pain and suffering we’ve experienced.  God makes ALL things new.   Even our pain and our woundedness.  Who would ever think a beautiful butterfly was hiding in that slimy caterpillar?  FORGIVE and let the transformation begin!

Your incomplete, imperfect-but-forgiven friend,

Jan Bloom

img_06931Shore ’nuff – look at that!  Four hunnerd thousand miles on her!  Happened somewheres in Illinois as we was driving to Nebrasker.  Yee haw!  Can’t be happier than that!  Of course her signals ain’t working quite right (they are not working AT ALL! ) but she’s in the shop today fer that.  And Gary’s seat ain’t too comfertable no more, but he don’t mind.  He’s used to stuffin pillers and sweatshirts and even Freddy the Pig, one of our mascots that rides in the winder, behind him to prop hisself up.  Yup.  Don’t get much better than this – four hunnerd thousand miles…

Our conference season began with our odometer creeping closer to that 400,000 mark.  We left our temporary home in Rolla, Missouri in March.   On our way to the first conference in Detroit we stopped in to see Charlie and Jenni in Bloomington, Indiana, where Charlie (our 2 year old grandson) had been undergoing proton radiation.  In January Charlie had a grapefruit sized tumor removed from his brain and proton therapy, available at only 5 locations in the U.S., is the only “cure.”   His life expentancy goes from 15% to 85-90% with proton radiation.  Jason’s insurance covered the cost of this, for which we are all grateful.  Charlie’s head was a bit ripe looking for a while, img_0645

but so are ALL bald heads!img_0647

The second photo is that of Grandpa Gary, Dr. Thornton (the medical director of the Proton Center) and Ed, the all-around manager.   All these baldies have scabs and scars on THEIR heads, too!

We did a one-day conference in a suburb of Detroit, then set up a few days later in a lovely heated garage in Grand Rapids.  We love our Michigan buddies!   We’ve never been able to celebrate birthdays there before, so that was extra special!

img_0676 img_0678 Here we are with our Michigan friends, the McDaniels and the Prewitts, who we’ve gotten to know (and love) through the MidWinter Conference.  Doug and Gary have the same birthday week, and Valerie made a scrumptious cake.

From Michigan we drove to Lincoln, Nebraska.  We were judges for the NCFCA regional conference – whew!  THAT was a challenge!  These amazingly well-prepared kids debating topics that I had little knowledge of- and doing it with style, grace, substance, and grit.  We have been SO impressed with the young adults who participate in NCFCA speech and debate.  What an opportunity to develop keen debating and communication skills.  We’d love to be at Bob Jones University in June for the finals.  I’m sure the finals will be amazing.  Go Ian!  Go Hannah!  Go Meagan!  Go Gages!

Lincoln, Nebraska is a smallish show, but very nice.  We love eating in Lincoln!  First it’s Lazlo’s, then it’s Valentino’s.  We love our dinners with vendor friends!  From Lincoln we drove HOME to MN.  Well, we kind of limped home to MN.  When we were 150 miles from home Gary realized we had lost a back trailer tire.  WHAT?  WHEN?  WHERE?  The axle had broken and the tire had spun off in the 15 minutes since we had been driving after a breakfast stop.  Sunday morning.  No shops open.  No tires to be bought.  We prayed, took as much as we could out of the trailer and put it in the van, and drove 35 miles an hour with only 1 full set of trailer tires.  God was merciful AGAIN and allowed us to get home that way.  A new axle had to be ordered and installed.

Home.  We were home in MN only 5 weeks in 2008.  God weaned us from Cokato and He weaned me from my garage-full of books – all neatly organized and alphabetized.   But just because He weaned us doesn’t mean I still don’t LIKE it there!  We worked very hard to get the house ready to put on the market to sell.  We packed, moved furniture, sheetrocked, painted, ripped up carpet, sanded and sealed the wood floors underneath removed carpet, and tried to get a few hours of sleep.  We were home less than 2 weeks and we had LOTS to do in that time.

dining room with newly refinished floor

dining room with newly refinished floor

The bathroom with a new mirror and wallpaper.  Love them mooses!

The bathroom with a new mirror and wallpaper. Love them mooses!

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I just can’t seem to get the hang of putting pictures in the best places!

The house looks great.  We bought a house that wasn’t  for sale in a town we never intended on living in and it’s been 13 years!  Though we’ve traveled much of the past 9 years, it has been home for a long time.  And we are sad to leave.  God used our church in Cokato and many of the people there to bring us through some tough days and to pray for us these past years of travel.  We will miss it.  We are praying that God brings a homeschooling family to buy our house and garage.  We have the BEST garage in Cokato – it is 32 x 44 feet with a second story.  It’s been a magnificent book building!  We had a book sale during the time we were home and so now we have only about 28,000 books instead of 30,000 books.  Anyone want any GREAT books for a GREAT price??!!!  We know that we cannot pack them all and bring them to Missouri since we don’t know WHERE we’ll be living here and books in boxes deteriorate rapidly.  We had lots of happy readers leaving with boxes and boxes of great books.  I think I will do another sale in June when I go back to finish packing.

Since MN we have done conferences in Kansas City, Missouri and Springfield, Missouri.  We get lots of questions about the impact of the CPSIA on our business.  We tell people that we are selling collectible books and if parents who buy them want to share them with their young readers, that’s fine with us!  The idea of anything printed before 1985 being a hazard is a very ominous cloud hanging over all educators everywhere.  What better way to change the future than to remove any truth about the past??!

We leave Rolla tomorrow to head to Oklahoma City and then Arlington, Texas.  Between Arlington and Nashville we are being blessed with a few days at a cabin in Oklahoma (riversEdgeCottages.com)  and then we’ll head to Winston-Salem where JJ will meet us for a few days.  We got to be together at Christmas, so it’s been a while.  We are bringing (well, actually Gus Solis from Lifetime Books is doing most of the hauling!) JJ his boxes from home.  I’m sure his son, Blaizen, will LOVE all the toys from JJ’s childhood.  JJ is finishing his first year at Old Dominion University in Norfolk, VA.  He is in Naval ROTC as part of his Officer Candidacy – it is a challenge and he has been pushing hard to meet all the requirements.  Whew!  He’ll have summer school classes too.

After Winston-Salem we head to Wichita, always one of our most fun conferences due to the friendships we’ve established there.  (You know who you are out there in Newton!!!)  Then it’s back to Rolla for a few days, off to a new conference near Chicago, then Denver and we’re DONE for the 2009 conference season.  We’ll be back in Rolla at the end of June.

My!  That was a lengthy update!  All I REALLY wanted to say was that Mighty Whitey is aging gracefully!

I had enjoyed reading the first two Joel Rosenberg books, The Last Jihad, and The Last Days when they came out years ago.   His next 3 books were also highly recommended but I didn’t find them on the used market and had not read them.  Last month when we were in Florida I saw all 5 books in Gus’s bookcase and was delighted when he allowed me to borrow them.

I started reading the first one last week when I visited Jenni and Charlie in Bloomington, Indiana.  In the midst of meals, laundry, cleaning, emailing, biking, shopping, and book editing I finished the last one, Dead Heat, this morning.   The books kept my interest, challenged my thinking, brought tears to my eyes more than once, and left me feeling drained yet hopeful.  I HAD to put a book down occasionally but I COULD have read and read and read.  They are very exciting, interesting, and challenging.

The books were fun reads.   I recognized ideas other authors like C. S. Lewis (Lord, lunatic or liar) and Angela Hunt (The Immortal) had explored.  The gospel explanations were clear and realistic.  The main characters of all 5 stories, Jon Bennett and Erin McCoy, were a tad bit unbelievable but then I live in a van sometimes and wealthy Wall Street whiz kids and beautiful, intelligent CIA operatives are not people I meet in Walmart parking lots!!!  $800 dinners at the top of the restaurant in Gilbralter are also WAY out of my experience!

The auxiliary characters were quite well crafted and I would have liked to know more than a few of them in real life. I especially liked Eli Mordechai, the former head of Mossad.  There were many sinister characters whose motivations were explored and judged fairly.  There were many situations that were frightening in their realism.  I don’t “like” prophecy and I usually shy away from it but these novels did a great job of exploring Biblical texts and creating fascinating scenarios.

I am a Vince Flynn fan.  I actually PAID real dollars to buy the last book when it came out in December.  Flynn’s characters are vividly drawn and exciting but usually do not ponder questions of eternal significance.  I think Rosenberg’s action scenes and insights into government and international conflict compare favorably to Flynn’s writing.  Suprising to me, I actually enjoyed Rosenberg more because he deals with the reality of eternity and truth.  For example, one of Rosenberg’s characters refuses to bend his knee to the Lordship of Jesus Christ even though he intellectually believes that the claims of Jesus are true.  He says he is not ready yet to give in.  The very next moment a bullet pierces his body and he dies.  He was THAT close to salvation and he missed it.  It was a sobering scene.

I highly recommend all 5 of these novels.  They are (in order):

The Last Jihad

The Last Days

The Ezekiel Option

The Copper Scroll

Dead Heat

All 5 are published in coordinating covers by Tyndale.

The author has a website at: www.joelrosenberg.com

Happy Reading!

Jan BLoom

My blogging has been more than sporadic the past few months – it has been non-existent.  But then, I don’t know if people look at it anyway!  So whether I’m here or not here – does it really matter??!!  (This is Minnesota angst speaking!  How COULD I presume people will read what I think??!! How audacious!)

We have been enjoying the milder weather present in Missouri, 7 degrees south of our home in Cokato.  This is MAY weather and it’s only February!  No snow.  Sunny skies.  Why DID our ancestors choose Minnesota and WHATEVER kept them there??!!

Gary and I are looking forward to our conference season.  Got a small taste of it the past few weeks in Florida speaking at two smaller conferences.  I do love the privilege of impacting the lives of people with the message of good books and successful parenting.  Our conference schedule is on our website: www.booksbloom.com

For any of you who are checking this blog for information and updates about our grandson, Charlie, you can check his page on caringbridge.com under CharlesHarris.

Jenni, Jason, Mikee, Charlee Christmas 2008

Jenni, Jason, Mikee, Charlee Christmas 2008

He continues to amaze us all with his astonishing recovery following the removal of a grapefruit sized tumor in his head on his second birthday, January 13.  God has been gracious and merciful and we will keep trusting Him through the radiation that is scheduled.

Volume 2 is done and the first printing almost gone.

scan00011We’ll be printing again to have books for the conference season.

We have received many positive comments on the cover and the contents.  Yee Haw!

Jan Bloom

I’m not certain if posts and pages both show up, so I am “covering all my bases” and doing both.  The second volume of Who Should We Then Read?  is at the printers and will be available January 16th.   Like the first volume this also has double laminated covers for durability and a spiral binding for ease of use.  Like the first volume this is also $19.95.  Shipping is $3.50.

You can order via email:  booksbloom @yahoo.com, or, if you are really smart with cyber stuff, go directly to paypal and use the “send money” button to order.

Jan Bloom

The Company of the Creative: A Christian Reader’s Guide to Great Literature and Its Themes

by:  David Larsen

Published by Kregel Publications c.1999

I recently found this book on the shelf at a friend’s house.  I sat down with it, intrigued that David Larsen, a pastor from my childhood, wrote about books.  I had known him to be a great Bible expositor – could he possibly write intelligently about books other than the Bible?

Dumb question!!!

This is an amazing book!  It was fun hearing Larsen’s voice speaking the words on the page in my head – he has such a distinctive style.  Even if I didn’t know what his voice sounded like, the words…ah!  the words!  He is a superb communicator.  He uses language well.  He speaks with passion and persuasion.  I don’t know if I have ever read a book or article in which a pastor begs fellow pastors to read across the spectrum of literature. His many reasons for pastoral literacy are clearly argued and convincing.

His words are not only to pastors – they are written to encourage all believers to read, understand, and enjoy books that many of us would probably never have the interest to pick up for our pleasure.  Larsen highlights authors I would expect (C. S. Lewis, Jane Austen, Dostoyevsky) and quite a few I’ve dismissed as being “worldly” or way too ancient like SInclair Lewis, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Pliny the elder, Socrates, and Augustine.

Larsen presents a compelling case for the importance of reading well.

Gary and I drove 30 miles Friday night to see the new movie, An American Carol.  We had heard it advertised on the radio and decided to do our patriotic best to support this effort by conservatives in Hollywood.  We enjoyed it immensely.  Having grown up on MAD Magazine humor, I laughed louder than most of those in the audience, many, judging from military haircuts, from nearby Ft. Leonard Wood.

The movie uses Charles Dicken’s A Christmas Carol as the base for its story.  Kelsey Grammer, as George Patton, is the angel who takes the Scrooge character, one Micheal Malone, to the past, the present, and the future.  Micheal Malone, a greedy, sloppy, fat, self-centered America-hating film producer, is in the midst of a campaign to eliminate Fourth of July celebrations when he is interrupted by General Patton.  (The Fourth of July must be done away with since WHY should anyone celebrate the birth of a horrible country like the United States of America?)

The movie speeds through its polically incorrect humor at a rapid pace.  In the 93 minutes we are sent to the Revolutionary War, the Civil War, 1968, a current college classroom, the plotting sessions of an inept group of Muslim terrorists, and a country western concert in Madison Square Gardens.  Though it is funny it is also disturbing as it points out the liberal views of those who would have us hate our own country.

It’s up to us as movie ticket buyers to tell those who made this movie, “THANK YOU” and “We support you!”  Don’t let this opportunity slip by – go see the movie, laugh, and tell others to give up a few dollars to back the efforts of these daring actors and actresses who have taken such a bold step as this – making a CONSERVATIVE movie.

The Last Disciple

by Hank Hanegraaff and Sigmund Brouwer

Published by Tyndale House, c.2005

I’ve listened to and learned from Hank Hanegraaff’s wisdom and was surprised to find a novel written by him when out booking.  I finished reading it and almost immediately went to the Internet to find the sequel.  It was a very well-written, informative book with a gripping story.

I was introduced to end times eschatology growing up in an evangelical home in the 1970’s.  The best selling apocolyptic series, Left Behind was still many years away but movies like A Thief in the Night and books by Hal Lindsey were everywhere.  In confirmation I learned a pre-trib timeline and never doubted that the rapture would come and Christians would be taken out of the world before the years of the Tribulation.

In recent years I became aware of a different interpretation of end times called preterism.  Preterism is the point of view that many or most of the events in Daniel, Ezekiel, and Revelation occurred between the years of the ascension of Jesus Christ and the destruction of the temple in Jerusalem in 70 A.D.  This novel is built on a  preterist view that is quite convincing.

The characters are well-developed, the plot surges on, and the historical background is interesting and informative.  I was especially struck by the steadfast opinions of the characters who claimed the temple in Jerusalem could NEVER fall and therefore the prophecies of Jesus were NOT fulfilled and he could NOT be the Messiah.  At this side of history we know the temple WAS destroyed and the prophecies of Jesus were fulfilled.

I enjoyed reading the book and look forward to the sequel.

Blogs are SO immediate.  One is to write what is happening NOW.  One is to add current photos and bring others into one’s thoughts.  But what if one is hampered by no internet access, a broken digital camera, and the need to have a toss-away camera developed?  One tells the story LATER and hopes it will still bring amusement, joy, and insight!  This story is two weeks old now.  ANCIENT in computer times.  But it still tells well and we still are marveling about it.  Let me go back to two, almost three weeks ago…

It had been a difficult week.  Well, actually, it had been a difficult 5 weeks.  When last I wrote, we were in the midst of trying to fix Mighty Whitey, our intrepid cargo van.  Mighty Whitey has had a hard life.  When we bought her in January of 2002 she already had gone 175,000 miles.  MW is a 1999 Chevy Express Cargo van.  WHERE had she gone in those 2 years to get THOSE kind of miles?  However, we’ve been good to her and she has been good to us.  Never before have we had a vehicle for 7 years and never before have we watched an odometer turn past 388,000 miles.  We have a history, Mighty Whitey and BooksBloom!

It was Wednesday, July 16.  We had barely made it to Long Beach from my aunt’s home in Rancho Cucamonga but we finally arrived to camp out in the parking lot of the convention center and wait to unload Thursday morning.  Gary had an appointment at the Chevy dealership in Long Beach Thursday afternoon after we set up our booth.  This would be mechanic #6.  Mechanics #1-#5 were ALL good guys and we would gladly recomment any of them.  But none had ever had enough TIME to really work on MW.  They quickly fixed what seemed to be the problem so we could be on our merry way.  On and on we went, each time getting to the next place where another mechanic would try another repair.  We were frustrated and bewildered.  We had gotten to the point where only a dealership could help us – they alone had the scanning software that was needed.

When Gary left the van at the dealership that afternoon he was assured they would work on it immediately.   He called a few times on Friday and finally reached the service manager who told him the van was fine and he could pick it up with no charges for the negative diagnosis.  (Isn’t that nice??!)  Saturday morning Gary drove MW until MW began exhibiting the symptoms we knew and loved (??).  The mechanic finally acknowledged there were problems and started scanning.  Soon though he told Gary that we had to bring MW back on Monday – it was time for the dealership to close.

Monday morning the mechanic began the scans again and finally discovered the problem.   He came to Gary, “Mr. Bloom, I have some good news and some bad news.”  Gary replied, “Shoot!”  The mechanic then said,  ”The good news is that I know what the problem is.  It’s the brains/the computer/the CPU.   The bad news is that it is the brains/computer/cpu…”                                         

The new cpu was ordered for the next day.  On Tuesday when the mechanic took the old computer out he was flabbergasted.  He called Gary into the service bay and showed him the unit.  I wish I had gotten a photo of it – it was U-G-L-Y!!!  Two of the four large connectors were TOTALLY gone.  The mechanic shook his head and wondered HOW we ever even got to Long Beach!  He said MW should not have been able to run for a LONG time with this problem.  A really, really, really long time. 

Instead of new connectors it was determined that an engine wiring harness was called for.  But it was in Lansing, Michigan and wouldn’t arrive until Thursday at the soonest.  How were we going to pay for this?  We had already spent almost $5,000 in the past 4 weeks trying to keep MW going.  Now we had to come up with another $3,000? 

That would make our repairs MORE than we paid for MW 7 years ago!  But there were no options.  We had to keep the repairs going or we would lose MW.  And then, how were we going to get to Phoenix for the next conference if MW had to stay in Long Beach?  We had to leave the next day.  I cried.  A friend asked if I cried in front of the mechanic and said that usually helps.  Nope, I cried in front of Gary who told me to “knock it off, that doesn’t help!”

Intellectually I knew God would take care of us.  I was feeling a bit sad and lonely, and I doubted our calling and wondered if we should quit this gypsy life and get jobs at Walmart or The Marketplace.  Let me say here that we were NOT angry at God.  We didn’t wonder “why us?” We shrugged our shoulders and philosophically said, “It’s about time for a new brain and wires!”  (Gary wondered if HE could get a new brain too…) 

In order to get to Phoenix we rented a Penske truck.  We THOUGHT we were renting a cute box van that would pull our trailer.  Nope.  The van did not have the correct size hitch for our trailer nor could we put our books in the van- it couldn’t carry that much weight.

This is a BIG truck!
This is a BIG truck!

Instead we got ourselves a 26 foot diesel truck!!!  Yee Haw!  Let’s move this dawg down the road!!!  BUT FIRST let’s transfer the books from the trailer to the truck.  Down one ramp and up another many times occupied Gary’s time.  I had to figure out how to pack.  MW is our huge suitcase.  Everything is in a bin, a crate, a box, or a bag.  WHAT was needed for THIS particular few days?  Oh – the decisions, the decisions!

We made it to Phoenix with our hearing still working.  Diesel trucks are NOISY!!!  We set up our booth and told the story of Mighty Whitey being left behind.  It was a sad, sad story.  But we were fine.  We were glad it was taking a long time to fix her – gave us more time to make the $$$’s we would need.   We had a great time in Phoenix.  Everyone there was kind, interested and concerned about our predicament.  The Phoenix convention staff and crew is amazing- energetic, sweet, helpful, and fun. Our sales were 12% higher than last year.  We thoroughly enjoyed the weekend with vendors, customers, and our hosts, Keith and Kathy Shull.  Life was looking good!
    
On Saturday evening, after the vendor hall closed, I heard an announcement, “All those involved in the love offering please meet at Miller Pads and Paper.”  Gary and I are SO different.  Gary heard the announcement and became irritated!  He wondered WHY Curt (from Miller Pads and Paper) hadn’t asked US for a contribution.  We didn’t have much but we would have given SOMETHING!!  Boy!  Did he feel out of the loop!  My fleeting thought was, “wow, wouldn’t that be neat if it was for US?”  But I immediately dismissed it.  WHY would anyone do THAT for US??!!! 
 
A few minutes later, as I was chatting with some vendor friends, I saw a large group of people moving down the aisle towards our booth.  They stopped.  Gus, from Lifetime Books and Gifts, said, “Gary, get over by your wife.”  Curt, in front with Gus and grinning from ear to ear, handed Gary a bright, red, shiny gift bag and said, “this is from the vendors.  It’s a love offering for you guys.  We know you’ve had a tough time lately.”
 
This is another picture I wish I had to share with you.  Forty, maybe fifty vendors standing in front of us with happy smiles on their faces and tears in their eyes.  The bright, red, shiny bag.  Our look of disbelief.  The tears in our eyes!  After prayer, hugs, and laughter, we finished packing up, enjoyed a pizza with some good friends, and went “home.”  We fell asleep that night, happy and feeling loved.  We also felt totally undeserving and totally unworthy.  We had NO idea what was in the bag.  It didn’t matter.   God was at work. 
 
Sunday morning brought words from the LORD from the pastor and from the Sunday School videos with Pastor John Piper.  About love.  And giving.  And giving to those who cannot pay back.  And how faith grows with love and visa versa.  We sat in the pew and knew that God was affirming us. This life IS the life He wants us to live!
 
Later that day, as we were heading back to Phoenix, I opened the bright, red, shiny bag.  Inside was a manilla envelope on which was written, LOVE OFFERING.  I opened the envelope.  It was stuffed with cash.  STUFFED. 
 
As I sat there looking at all this money, I reflected on our lives the past 9 years.  God has changed Gary so much.  I think that this gift is an acknowledgement of Gary’s Gary-ness.  He is called GOOFY GARY for a reason;  he makes every convention a carnival and every vendor hall a place of fun, laughter, and crazy shenanigans.  He also helps everyone who needs help.  He is the “go-to man”, always ready to fix booths, cars, or situations.  He is Mr. Organizer, figuring out the best ways to unload, pack up, and keep all the vendors happy.  I stay in the booth so it is certainly not because of ME that people gave so lavishly!  Whatever the reason, we were BLESSED!!
 
On Monday we were back at the dealership bright and early.  Our plans were to pull the trailer out onto the street  (it was stored inside the gates over the weekend), and return the Penske.  We were there a bit TOO early, so we decided to put our stuff on the street.  After all, we were told MW would be ready Monday morning.  We’d hitch her up to the trailer, load up, and be out of there in no time.
In the meantime, while I sat in a lawn chair on the street and read a book, Gary paid for the Penske rental – in cash. 
 
At 8 AM, when the dealership opened, Gary bounded up to the service manager who told him MIGHTY WHITEY WAS NOT FIXED YET!!!  Not only that, there was no vehicle there that could bring the trailer out into the street.  We’d have to wait.
 
About 11 AM, when the police officer pulled over by the bookcases, stopped, and got out of her car, Gary (who was now the one sitting in the lawn chair on the street), knew there might be a problem.  Their conversation ran like a bad comedy act..
Officer: “sir, we’ve received a report that you are selling books on the street.”      
Gary: “I sell books, but I’m not selling them HERE!”
Officer:  “these books should not be here”
Gary: “I’d rather they weren’t here!”
Officer:”Why are these books here?  They shouldn’t be!”
Gary: “I took them out of the truck”
Officer: “where’s the truck?”
Gary:’I returned it.  It was a rental.”
Officer: “Why are these books here?  They shouldn’t be here!”
Gary: “I KNOW they shouldn’t be here.  I’m waiting to load them in my trailer!”
Officer:  “where is your trailer?”
Gary:  “It’s behind that wall.  I can’t get it out”
Officer:  “Why not?
Gary:  “I’m waiting for my van so I can get it out.”
Officer: “Where’s the van?”
Gary “It’s inside too.  The mechanic says it is ALMOST done.”
Officer:  “You can’t have these books here.”
Gary:  “I don’t WANT to have the books here!  I’m waiting for my van to be finished so I can get the trailer and get these books OUT OF HERE!”
Officer:  “I’m going to have to give you a ticket.”
Gary:  “I’ll go see when the van will be fixed.  But I can’t leave this stuff here alone – can you watch it while I go in to the dealership to get my wife (I was trying to get on the computer) and talk to the mechanic?”
Officer:  “I can’t watch your stuff!   It shouldn’t even be here!”
Gary: “Well, if you’re going to write me a ticket, that means you’ll have to be here to get the information, right?”
And on and on it went!  She finally consented to wait for me and wrote a warning ticket.  Gary asked for 2 hours and FINALLY Mighty Whitey was good to go.  Before she came back we were out of there!
 
While Gary loaded the trailer, I went inside the dealership to settle the bill.  We told the mechanic, the service manager, and the cashier at the dealership about the LOVE OFFERING in the bright, shiny, red bag.  We explained that when we left MW there the previous week, we didn’t know HOW we were going to pay for the repairs.  But we were ready to pay now – in cash!!!
The bill for repairs and THE MANILLA ENVELOPE
The bill for repairs and THE MANILLA ENVELOPE

The cashier responded that stories like that reminded her that people are good.  She added her theory that WE must be good too, since people did this for us.  I looked at her in disbelief and said, “it’s not THEM, it’s not US, it is GOD who is good! ”  I failed to ask her if anyone else has ever paid a $3000+ repair bill with hundreds, fifties, and twenties – I wonder what her answer would have been.  Maybe NEVER??!!

The odd/hard/curious thing about this is that we cannot thank most of the givers.  We have NO idea who all gave or how much they gave.  It was truly a free gift.  We have never been the recipients of a gift like this.  I think that in God’s economy it is not the size of the gift that even matters – it is the giving.  God multiplies what we give out of love.  And we felt LOVED!!!  

We would have been fine without the gift – we would have been totally broke, but we would have been fine.  I would not have doubted God’s goodness.  Yet He chose to bless us through all these people.  And we get to tell this wonderful story of how God moved Mighty Whitey down the freeway and over the mountains.  I imagine that His angels were whistling LONG compositions to provide the air power to get us up over them hills!  And we get to share about people (some we didn’t even know!) who gave wildly and hilariously and anonymously.  People, like us, who have their own expenses, repairs, commitments, and bills.  People, like us, who trust that God will take care of THEM, too!

I hope this long, long story reminds you that God DOES care.  Even when it seems He does NOT.  Even when you feel like a whiner and complainer.  Even when you doubt that you are doing what you are called to do.  It sure has been a delight to be part of His working in the lives of our friends and in our lives.  AND in the “life” of Mighty Whitey.  What fun!

 

 

 

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